My Own Little World

Today I was estatic, bewildered, dumbfounded, full of joy, and heartwrenched with sadness. This past week has been one of the best and one of the worst of times and I am floored at God in the midst of all of it.

Have you ever wondered why things happen the way they do? Why do jobs fall through, plans change, things don't work right. I'm beginning to understand that it's a little bit bigger than just me...or just you. I'm beginning to understand that many small things must happen all around us everyday to play this orchastrated symphony called life. We all have a great purpose (the solist) but without our everyday small parts being played out, the song is lacking. Sometimes duets, and quartets are more beautiful than a solo.

We sometimes get stuck looking inward, and sometimes we get stuck looking outward too far. For today, I realize that I need to start with my family...for when they are strong, they carry me with them and God uses our talents and abilities to touch many clients, many friends, and many others we are priveledged to get to meet along the journey. We constantly find ourselves being connected with people for very specific reasons...but this last week, I have had to stand back and watch my wife deal with our beautiful son not being able to cope with changes to his schedule. (He is in the Autistic Spectrum which means he needs VERY rigid schedules). I've watched his younger brother run out of the house afraid of his older brother's yelling and verbal abuse. I've had my wife ask me to leave the room because I don't have the same patience for him...and I've watched my wife walk in pain from tearing more adhesions from a bad fall a few days ago...and then to add the whip cream to the top of the cake...get hit with a throat infection.

As I leave my family to be in Saskatoon with a full plate of work over the next few days, I realize the most important work God has placed before me has to do with my hands and knees. I need to pray for the ones I love most so that we in turn, can go out strong as a family to do the work God has for us. "A chord of three strands is not easily broken" and in this case...four.